Leaving on a jetplane.

i've graduated(!)...

and on my way to canada to have chillout time with parents and auntie & co.

many things have been running through my mind...

and like joanna says, " a million thoughts are running through my mind"

but im too exhausted to be coherent,

and the fleeting thoughts pass me by.

Words fail me,

but thank you to you and you and you who called/smsed to share with me the happy occasion.

Seems unreal that something has ended and something else is going to begin,

hasn't sunk in quite as yet.

The wheels of routine are running running running...

but tis another journey.another place and another time.

somewhere sometime someday

we'll meet and find

that the years have gone
and at that time,

i hope we can open the capsule of time so dear,
and yet still find,
the fond laughter cheer and
a merry chat
is all we need to cross that leap.

love,jas

PACKING CRISIS.

=(

I just realised how much stuff I have...

and i just realised how much blue tack i have to remove from the walls.

and how much stupid furniture i have accumulated.

and it's amazing how dust seems to settle everywhere,

in corners where ur barang barang hid them well.

Stripped bare, the balls of dust irk me.

and the cherry on top of it all: admin.

*poof* goes my three day play plan.

i concede defeat. and give up a day or two of play.

so that packing can proceed without me calling up my poor but dear friends to whine.

and the journey continues.

Times like this, i just wish magic will do it all.

or to be candid, i wish my daddy was beside me,

wanting to scold me on the inside, shaking his head on the outside,

but his hands moving non-stop and in the blink of an eye,

all is well.

Times like this, i wish i was on the plane already,

never mind graduation or what have u,

i want to reach the destination and skip the process.

Just skip it.

and says my friend, Just do it.

=(

All because we do not carry,everything to God in prayer...

"Can we find a friend so faithful,
who will all our sorrows share,
Jesus knows our every weakness,
take it to the Lord in prayer...
In His arms, He'll take and shield thee.
Thou art find thee solace there."

Just spent some time hearing a sermon on the love story of Ruth...and
feel so refreshed! Truly, better is one day in your courts than thousands elsewhere.

Ever felt like time was passing so quickly that days pass without you knowing, and u can't tell one day from the other?

Spending time with Jesus, is like time stands still,
and one retreats into a state of rest, a deeper tranquility...

And today is day two of tidying up the pigsty and sorting admin.

Weekend was spent in New York with Su En,
and my my, it felt like old times, to be awfully cliche.
Seeing her and talking with her, and hearing her update me on friends back in London,
makes me feel as though i never left it at all,
never left MIC...

Those precious times,
those memories,
those conversations and certain points in time.

I thank God for every gift,
in things big and small,
shown to me through the people I've met,
the sights I've seen,
the beauty I witness,
the beauty of memories that linger...

and thank you Su En,
for the words of life you spoke to me.
Your words were uplifting and filled with His love,
filled with the wisdom of Abba...
It was like fresh manna from heaven.

In Chinese, they call it yuan fen.
I like to think of yuan fen as tian fen.
because to me, God is behind it all.
The people you meet,
the paths that cross yours,
some for a season, some for life,
each season is a divine portion
bestowed to us from daddy God,
each portion beautiful in its own time,
each adding to the kaleidoscope of our story,
the love letter He writes on our heart.

And so I've learnt, still learning,
to not look so far ahead,
to not look far far back,
but to enjoy the day,
the season,
the right now,
cos He has my tomorrows and He's faithful to happy endings,
and cos His glory is my rearguard, my glory and the lifter of my head.
and His word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path.

Emmanuel.

This is the beginning of the end...

...
Highlights of the day:
- phone conversations with two very dear friends. Keeps for life I say!
And just to quote something I found extremely funny, haha.

In my attempt to toss one of those wise sayings,
I said, "Not everything can be bought with money, you know."
"For everything else,there's Mastercard", says my friend.

haha.

And, it's funny and nice how people come to know your "ways".
Said my other friend,
" Eh, you want to go, go la"
"No need to say are u going to have dinner?"
Caught my bluff.

haha.

-Dinner with a dear dear princess! And we were just saying, funny how when graduation comes, it'll be goodbye and hmm, no more see u on monday at class, no more see you at HGS for dinner, or see you at ...

and so do you even remember how it began? =)

Talitha Cumi, Little Girl, I say to you:Arise

In Christ alone-I love this song-and that's my current wall paper!!

There in the ground, His body lay

Light of the world

by darkness slain

Then bursting forth

in glorious day

Up from the day He rose again

As He stands in victory

sin's curse has lost its grip on me

For I am His and He is mine

Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life

No fear in deaath

This is the power of Christ in me

From life's first cry to

final breath

Jesus commands my destiny

No power of hell no scheme of man

can ever pluck me from His hand

Till He returns or calls me home

Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.

To where you are-Josh Groban.

And that love will live on and never leave...

Fly me up to where you are,
beyond the distant star.
I wish upon tonight to see you smile,
if only for a while
to know you're there.
A breath away is not far away

to where u are.
I know you're there.
A breath away is not far
to where you are.

...

...macro exam tmw...

I read those words before my grandma passed away in the doorway of a church
where me and grand pa stopped to pray....

his eyes filled up with tears

If u get there before I do
don't t give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
but im not going to let u down
darling wait and see
and between now and then
till i see u again
I'll be loving you
Loveme-Collin Ray-

I have my first finals in about seven hours time...
and i need a break from the cramming.
Norah Jones is playing now....aptly the song is sunrise.If the cramming continues, i may just be up to see my first ever sunrise in new Haven.

and so the countdown starts.
one down tmw, threee more finals to go.
one day more=one day less of my time spent here,
one day nearer to parents arrival,
one day nearer to me going home.

and now plays january rain from the serendipity soundtrack.
i love it.
it reminds me of fresh dew on leaves after rainfall.
it reminds me of crisp cold air.

don't take my word for it!go have a listen and see,
if u don't get lulled into the song....
and it's time.

to get back to the solow model.


Collin Ray's love me put a stop to my cramming-a much needed break-