since i started work

it seems like my world has been turned upside down
since i started work.

i've been tested in areas i've never been tested before.
went through countless emotional roller coasters.
and just when i thought things were getting more stable, and i was getting more accustomed,
change beckons.
destabilising change.

"you want to shut the world out
and just be left alone...
cos sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
is just a grain of sand
and what you've been out there searching forever
is in your hands...

when you figure God's love is all that matters after all
it sure makes everything else
seem so .
small."

while you're sitting down
things you can't change

time's flying by moving so fast

you better make it count cos
you cant' get it back..."
- So small, Carrie Underwood

As the year comes to a close,
the year of new beginnings,
i know God heard what I asked for.
and I just want to:
live each day to the fullest,
throw futile thoughts to the wind,
give all my heart to the Creator of it's desires,
knowing that He knows my untold dreams,
my unspoken thoughts,
my needs, my wants and cries.

For the lilies neither toil nor spin,
and yet Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.

The path of the just is as the shining sun...

He'll wipe away your tears and pain,
rejoice Daughter of Zion....
Shalom Jerusalem,

listening to one of my favourite sound tracks by my favourite worship leader in church, Adeline Gan!

back from a cozy getaway-Miss U Cafe-
short and sweet.
a little too short me thinks,
but work/sleep beckons!

thank you for the time, the company and the gifts.
the teddy slippers that will warm my feet,
and the coconut pig that reminds me of...

church was really refreshing for me today.
the message spoke to my heart.
it was like burdens lifted,
and the doubts cleared.
i dont' have all the answers,
but there is a rest that comes,
knowing that He is in control,
He sees what's ahead,
He knows the unknown,
and He's watching over me.

The path of the just is as the shining sun,
that shines brighter unto the perfect day.

it warms me heart thinking of the pple i spent sunday in company with.

a cuz whose wise words never fail to shed light on my situation and puts things into perspective.
a dear friend who i told is one of the best things in life that happened to me.
a sister who i can ignore happily while she talks cos she does the same to me-whose heart i safely trust-
a mum who is an oasis of comfort, a shelter i go to when i have nightmares or am disillusioned.
a special someone who i'm happy is back, who i can safely share my thoughts with.

thank you Jesus for the wealth you've given me, seen in the people i cherish and hold dear.

i've said it before and i'll say it again,
it's love that makes the world go round, go round, go round...

and swimming tmw! whee!

4 months into work

The cherry on top of an extremely trying day was:
a necklace from a dear dear friend just back from australia!

the magic of starbucks, laughter and good company
equals burden lifted off my shoulder.

a precious gem you are,
and a rare rare find.

"lift your open hands,
strike up the band
and make the fireflies dance,
silver moon sparkling..."

life! should be a dance,
so free,
uninhibited,
a thrillling sort of quiet,
with an unshakeable sort of stability.

so i was very disappointed today.
misunderstanding?
me thinking too much, reading too much, they say.

... ...

tomorrow is a new day,
and lessons have been learnt!
Guard your heart with all dilligence,
for out of it spring the issues of life.